Mark and I managed to go to the cinema to see T2 Trainspotting. A very very rare night out for both of us.
It's the first time we've been to the cinema since... well I can't remember the last time!
20 years ago we watched the original Trainspotting in the cinema and I thought it fitting that we did the same with this one.
This isn't a film review as such, it's just I had to write this after the effect the film had on me.
Back then in 1996, Mark and I had been together for almost 2 years. We were nearly at the end of our college courses and the world was our oyster!
It was great to see Renton, Spud, Begbie and Sick Boy again after all this time. When they first came on screen, I thought they have aged well, then instantly thought...I am 20 years older too. Where has the time gone?!
The film was absolutely brilliant, I can't explain how much I enjoyed it. I laughed out loud, felt sad and shocked at various bits throughout.
I could relate to the film even though, 1: I'm not from Scotland, 2: I don't do drugs (or never have) and 3: I don't live in a high-rise block of flats!
The famous poem from the first film goes something like this...
Choose Life.
Choose a job - yes got that (and clinging on).
Choose a career - hopefully my career will last until retirement but I doubt it.
Choose a family - yes, I love my family very much.
Choose a f****** big television - well my husband chose that,
choose washing machines - tick,
cars - yes, two of them,
compact disc players - had one in the nineties and
electrical tin openers - never had one but my grandma did.
Choose good health - ermm, sort of,
low cholesterol - yes, and
dental insurance - nope.
Choose fixed interest mortage repayments - yes.
Choose a starter home - did that 19 years ago.
Choose your friends - don't have many.
Choose leisurewear - I'm not made for leisurewear and matching luggage - afraid not.
Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of f****** fabrics - bought a 3 piece suite, not on HP and it's black.
Choose DIY - Mark's job, I'm rubbish at it, and wondering who the f*** you are on a Sunday morning - definitely as I do a 16 hour day every Saturday, so I'm like a zombie on Sunday.
Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows - not quite gameshows, but I do watch TV, stuffing f****** junk food into your mouth - have you been watching me? Only kidding!
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, f***** up brats you spawned to replace yourself - I'm scared of growing old and especially of going into a home and my children aren't brats.
Choose your future - I try but who knows where it will take me.
Choose life - yes please.
And yes there is an updated version in T2, the opening line is this...
Choose Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and hope that someone, somewhere cares - Yes, yes, yes and yes! You can follow me on all of the above!
Yet somehow this film affected me, something I wasn't prepared for.
After the film when Mark and I were going back to the car to rush back to nanny who was babysitting, a very different evening from the first one we watched. We didn't have children then, we didn't have a care in the world and didn't have anyone else to look after except ourselves.
I started to think about my own life and my life with Mark.
I said things like...
'What have I done with my life over the last 20 years?'
'We just don't go out anymore.'
'We need to do more things together.'
Now any parent will know, it's never straight forward when you want to go out as a couple. There's a military operation to be put in place before we can go out. Phone calls, texts, arranging pick-up times and when we will be back.
Happy to be 'out, out'
I work EVERY Saturday. As I work for a Sunday newspaper my Saturday's are out of the question to go 'out, out'. And lets face it, no-one is ready to party on a Sunday night!
This evening just made me stop in my tracks and think about my life. After thinking about it all the way home in the car, I had quickly thought about all the things I have achieved in the last 20 years of my life. And my conclusion was to feel proud.
If you liked Trainspotting, then you will really enjoy T2. Danny Boyle did a fantastic job.
I know this is a bit of a random post, but sometimes little things make us think about our own lives. I'd like to know about any little moments in your life that have make you stop and think. Leave a comment below.